lost..

its been a long time din publish a post here..
today my mood is damn bad.. i was so stress recently.. a lot of things came in this few weeks time..

Dissertation Vs Encore
as a typical SOT final year student, we need to do a project dissertation. so bcos of this i have spent a lot of time doin it even during holiday. Almost everyday from that til now ther is no excuse for me to avoid from doin tat cos the title im doin is damn difficult. it's really burden me. its was like a nightmare that catch u everyday.. wat is more terrible is that i m a finalist for ENCORE competition. it is group singing competition. Starting i jus tot of participating for fun n support the event cos its organized by Choir Society as i was the chairman before. wat a surprise while i noe tat me n my partner, michelle managed to get into the final on 1/12/07.. by right, i shud b happy with it since i like singing so much, but dunno why, i dun feel like very happy oso.. probably bcos i m now lack of time to do my dissertation rather where can i find extra time still? suddenly i was like.. sigh.. very contradictive situation.. wat m i gonna do? anyway im happy with my team members. my group name is RHYTHMUS!!

above.. jeremy n t.k.
below.. michelle n meng hooi

yes!! its same wit my blog title.. lol.. today is my group performance day at foyer for P&P purposes. something bout the performance, the PA system was suck, tat its hardly to hear our voice.. we sang two songs which are reflection by christina aguilera n 'three wishes' by FIR. the situation during performance even worst for the second song cos 1 mic had down n me and michelle forced to share a mic... So wat m i gonna do now? i have delay my dissertation for almost 2 months.. feel so sorry to my supervisor Ms KHOO.. wanted to say very very sorry.. i make u so disappointed on me..

VIOS
since my mum went for vacation to china with my aunts, so i decided to bring her car to my kl hostel.. of cos im sharing the car wit my bro la.. another nightmare came to me.. on the early morning 4am on Sunday (11/11/07), my bro called me up from slip n told me that he knock down a motorcycle.. wat was even worst is he get beat up by a group of malays with motorcycles bout more than 10 of them. den he n his roommate were at the hospital now.. without further delay, i quickly took my phone and keep calling my fren ah ming to fetch me to HKL to figure out. when i reached the main entrance of HKL, there is a group of malays gathered in front of the entrance. later i was told that these are the Malays beat my bro and they were waiting outside to beat them again.. do u notice that there are no law for malays even in the hospital.. wher r the 'mata'?? wat to do.. they are Malays.. as a result, those malays actually stole 2 handphones from my bro n his fren.. so wat is the intention they doin this? rob?? the question here is r the victim n the group of malays frens?? we din even noe they are frens onot cos they all have 'pakat' dy.. how to check?? the most funny thing was when report to the traffic police station, the officer inside was like forcing my bro to admit he was wrong.. u c.. how malays help malays.. shit.. r rules exist in MALAYSIA? is the malays ruling the country or the Malaysian?? anyway.. i hope everythin will be fine..

Ex
today after my performance, Mr Alan came n told me that he saw my ex walking along with a guy very closely.. n asking me y ur ex change the 'screen' so fast wan? starting i din really believe cos she always act like tat wit guys.. den dunno y i feel like very weird n naturally go n confirm on that by my ways.. n finally the answer i get.. YES!! she has a boy friend already.. n i found that that guy is actually very good in terms of playing instruments n is a scholarship students summore.. tis makes me feel tat it was a right decision to let her go bcos im not good enough.. dating with me onli makes her suffer n im suffer also.. its just.. dunno.. mayb im not happy bcos she hav bf faster than me?? that's childish thought i noe.. at the same time im also askin myself how come not even 3 months time she can change so fast?? in fact, is this not i wish to? is our relationship exist before??

tis is the very first n onli pic that i put in web-based

bcos our relationship tat time was like very secret n not so keen to let others noe about our relationship especially on her side.. n today i saw her putting her n her new bf pic on the msn display pic.. she din even put ours before.. after all, suppose i have to feel happy about that rite? hope she live in happiness.. "zhu fu ta"..